I guess about change and opportunity

If there’s any word that just ignites discomfort and wracks my mind it has to be the C-word. Alright not that word most would think, but change. Bonus points to anyone who guessed correctly. It’s strange people think I handle it well because supposedly I’m considered to be an adaptable person. I’ll go along, if it makes sense, one will hear no protest, should there be concerns, sure questions will arise seeking answers to settle doubts all the while reassuring the other that I’m cool with it. Oh ok so maybe not so strange… But at the end of the day I think we as people end up getting comfortable in our positions in what’s going on around us, after all the hardship you know is the hardship I know how to deal with or even manage. It’s always so fascinating to think, yes if I did this or if I did that, I could be happier, but it involves change and for that the doubts run amok, knowing that if this happens, if the social environment is awful then would I be happier? It’s for all the uncertainty that makes change so horrifying – unless you’ve already embraced that feeling. After all some have found great successes and happiness through not only embracing change but engaging in it. But how does one do that exactly, what are the steps to doing so (maybe add here how this is done?) truly these thoughts come from reflecting on my career to this point. At many points and junctures, opportunities have come up, yes some were accepted begrudgingly or with heart full of doubt as some could be hard to refuse. But it made me think that although some situations were better than others and to a degree I’m thankful for the environment I’m in now it makes me wonder do I stay for much longer than I should’ve in some roles and scenarios simply because I’m comfortable even to the detriment of progressing or worse regressing? As Fridays typically have wrap up work or slow days I found myself remembering advice from a vice president of a company telling me it’s not wrong to stay in a role but it’s also a good idea to periodically check in with yourself on where you want to go or be since the worst thing you can do is wait till you’re miserable before looking for your next opportunity. If you do that, it’ll feel much harder and challenging, the stench of desperation may ooze out and cause people to pull away closing doors before you even try to enter. Alright that last part wasn’t really word for word but it’s how my mind processed it. So like I’ve said one could say I’m in a great position, have proven myself to be an asset as opposed to a liability. That with expertise I’m looked at favorably. But like I’ve mentioned in earlier posts, the negatives and frustrations – which I understand can be found anywhere, along with business changes and the like occurring that maybe it’s time to start considering the future because after all we shouldn’t wait till it feels like I have no choice other than to find another position or be thrusted into a role just for the sake of having a replacement. So my dear diary though it’s not my intention to just up and quit, cause that’s too much of a drastic change, I’m going to focus on the future where I will work towards being open to opportunities and change, to build additional skills incorporating them into my role to be able to speak to the skillset and how it was used and put myself out there. That if I don’t find a new role by the end of the year, I can still accept that I’ve learned new things and have taken a step towards knowing that I’ll be ok.